Monday, May 6, 2013

Happy birthday to you :)

May 6, 2013


Today is your birthday, and I really want to congratulate you in person, but I just cant make it. 

I wish the best for you.. Hope you have a birthday that's as special as you are! I hope your Birthday is awesome, wonderful, full of love and laughter... just like you! May your Birthday be blessed with everything God wants to give you!

Hari ulang tahun

May 6, 2013

Kemarin, setelah lama tidak bertemu dengan dia, akhirnya bisa bertemu juga. Padahal aku sudah berpikir untuk melupakan dia. Tapi di saat aku mulai melupakan dia, aku malah bertemu dengannya. Saat bertemu kemarin, dia seolah muncul didepan wajahku dan mengatakan "Selamat yah, yang tidak jadi move on".... hahahahaha.... Aku sadar bahwa aku masih menyukainya..

Sebenarnya aku ingin melupakannya, tapi aku malah bertemu dengan dia.. Aku sempat berpikir tidak ingin lagi bertemu dengannya, tapi dia masih sering ke bandung. Tapi kemudian aku berpikir lagi, apakah benar aku tidak ingin bertemu dengannya lagi? Atau itu cuma alasan yang aku buat untuk diriku sendiri agar aku bisa cepat melupakannya. Seperti pengecut saja.. 

Jika aku benar-benar ingin melupakannya, seharusnya aku bisa menanggung segala resiko yang ada. Kalaupun dia kebandung, kalaupun akhirnya kita masih bertemu lagi, aku harus bisa menerima kenyataan itu.
Hari ini dia ulang tahun dan jujur saja, aku ingin menyelamati dia secara langsung, tapi dia sudah kembali ke jakarta.. hahahahahahahaha....

Sunday, May 5, 2013

Moving on? Its not as easy as I thought

May 5, 2013

Some weeks I'm trying to move on from someone. That guy is very special for me. I have liked him for almost three years. Since the beginning, I really like him and it feels so hard to get over him. For me, he's really hard to forget.

At the beginning of 2013 he moved to another city. He had graduated from college anyway. I think it would be very difficult to forget him, but I keep trying. And finally I forget him. After a long time, I finally move on. I never thought it could be that easy. 

But in fact, it happen because we haven't meet for a long time. And today, after a long time I finally met him. Guess what?? I'm not totally get over him. When I saw him, I realized that I really miss him. I realized that some part of me still wants him. I dont know why, but the fact is I still love him, and it's really kill me that I cant have him. Its hard to pretend that I dont care when the fact is I still care about him.

I just realized, move on is not as easy as I thought